Nightmares and Dreams

Nightmares…. So, my 2nd worst nightmare has come true. Judah is dead. That was scenario #1. Done and done. 2nd worst…forgetting. No one talks about him. We don’t have many pictures up. His room is gone. His things are in boxes in closets. It’s such a clean break. He was here and now he’s not.Continue reading “Nightmares and Dreams”

How it began … Judah. and our parenthood.

At nine days of life, Judah showed signs of struggle.  He would not feed and spent all day sleeping.  Sufficiently concerned, I called the pediatrician’s office to voice concerns.  Maya had been 6 weeks premature, and only weighing in at 3 pounds at birth.  I had been vigilant ever since and with each of the children.  Judah wasContinue reading “How it began … Judah. and our parenthood.”